I wanted to destroy everything beautiful I’d never have. 

Burn the Amazon rain forests. 

Pump chlorofluorocarbons straight up to gobble the ozone. 

Open the dump valves on supertankers and uncap offshore oil wells.

 I wanted to kill all the fish I couldn’t afford to eat, 

and smother the French beaches I’d never see. 

I wanted the whole world to hit bottom.

 I really wanted to put a bullet between the eyes of every endangered panda that wouldn’t screw to save its species 

and every whale and dolphin that gave up and ran itself aground.

 I wanted to burn the Louvre. 

I’d do the Elgin Marbles with a sledge-hammer and wipe my ass with the Mona Lisa. 

This is my world, now.