Saturday, 4 April 2026

 

she seems so cool so focused so quiet 
her eyes remain fixed upon the horizon 
you think you know all there is to know
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about her immediately upon meeting her
 everything you think you know is wrong 
passion flows through her like a river of blood
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she only looked away for a moment and The Mask dropped and you fell higher 
tomorrow start here
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Bonnie's mother 
you know how it is when you love someone and the hard part the bad part the Jerry
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Springer Show part is that you never stop loving someone 
there's always a piece of them in your heart 
now that she is dead she tries to
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remember only the love 
she imagines every blow a kiss 
make up an expertly cover the bruises 
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cigarette burn on her thigh 
all these things she decides were gestures of love
 she wonders what her daughter will do
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she wonders what her daughter will be 
she's holding a cake in her death 
here's the cake she was always going to bake for a little one
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maybe they would have mixed it together 
they would have sat and eaten it and smiled to all three of them
 the apartment would have slowly filled with
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laughter and with love 
strange there are a hundred things she's tried to chase away 
the things she won't
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remember and that she can't ever let herself think about because that's when the birds Scream the worms crawl and somewhere in her mind it's always raining a slow and endless drizzle
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you will hear that she's left the country 
there was a gift she wanted you to have but it is lost before it reaches you 
late one night the telephone was singing
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a voice that might be hers will say something that you cannot interpret before the connection crackles and is broken 
several years later from a taxi you'll
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see someone in a doorway who looks like her
 she'll be gone by the time you persuade the driver to stop you will never see her again
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whenever it rains you will think of her silence
 35 years a showgirl that she admits to
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and her feet hurt day in day out from the high heels 
she can walk down steps with a 40 pound headdress and high heels
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she's walked across the stage with a lion in high heels she could walk through goddamn hell in high heels if it came to that
 these are the things that have helped
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kept her walking and her head high 
her daughter a man from Chicago who loved her though not enough 
the national news anchor who
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paid her rent for a decade and didn't come to Vegas more than once a month 
two bags of silicone gel and staying out of the Desert Sun
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she will be a grandmother soon very soon love 
and then there was the time that one of
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them simply wouldn't return her calls to his office so she called the number he did not know that she had and she said to the woman who answered that this was
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so embarrassing as he was no longer talking to her could he be told that she was still waiting for the return of her lacy black under things she'd taken
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because he said they smelled of her of both of them and that reminded her she said is the woman on the other end of the phone said nothing could they be laundered first
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and then simply posted back to her he has her address and then her business joyfully concludedshe forgets him utterly and forever 
and
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she turns your attention to the next 
one day she won't love you too you will break your heart 
time
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she's not waiting not quite it's more that the years mean nothing to her anymore that the dreams and the streets cannot touch her
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she remained on the edges of time implacable unhurt Beyond one day you will open your eyes and see her and
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after that the dark it is not a reaping it's dead
 she will pluck you gently like a feather or a flower for her hair
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rattlesnakes 
she doesn't know who owned the jacket originally nobody claimed it after a party and she figured it looked good on
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her it says kiss she does not like to kiss people men and women have told her that she's beautiful she has no idea
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what they mean when she looks in the mirror she does not see beauty looking back at her only her face 
she does not read watch TV or make love
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she listens to music she goes places with her friends she rides roller coasters but never screams when they plummet or twist and plunge upside down
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if you told her the jacket was yours she just shrug and give it back to you it's not like she cares not one way or the other
4 minutes, 31 seconds
Heart of Gold
 sentences sisters maybe twins possibly cousins we won't know unless we see the birth certificates the real ones not the ones
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they use to get ID this is what they do for a living they walk in take what they need walk out again
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it's not glamorous it's just business and it'll always be strictly legal it's just business they're too smart for this and too tired
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they share clothes wigs makeup cigarettes wrestles and hunting they move on two minds one heart 
sometimes
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they even finish each other's 
Bundy's child 
standing in the shower letting the water run over her washing it away washing
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everything away she realizes that what made it hardest was that it smelled just like her own High School she'd walk through the corridors heart
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beating raggedly in her chest smelling that school smell it all came back to her it was only what six years maybe less
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since it had been her running from Locker to classroom said she'd watched her friends crying and raging and brooding over the toss and the names and
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the Thousand Hertz to plague the powerless none of them had ever gone this far 
she found the first body in a stairwell
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that night after the shower which could not wash what she had to do away not really she said to her husband I'm scared of what
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this job is making me hard it's making me someone else someone I don't know anymore he pulled her close and held her and
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they stayed touching skin to skin until dawn
 happiness she feels at Home on the Range your
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protector's in position man shaped paper Target up and waiting for her
 she imagines a little she remembers a
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little she sites and squeezes and as her time on the Range begins she feels rather than sees The Head and the Heart obliterate 
smell of cordite always makes
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you think of the Fourth of July 
you use the gifts God gave you that was what her mother had said which makes her falling out even harder
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somehow nobody will ever hurt her she'll just smile her faint vague wonderful smile and walk away
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it's not about the money it's never about the money 
Raining Blood 
here and exercise and choice your choice
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one of these Tales is true 
she lived through the war in 1959 she came to America she now lives in a condo
6 minutes, 56 seconds
in Miami a tiny French woman with white hair with a daughter and a granddaughter she keeps herself to herself and smiles
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rarely if the weight of memory keeps you from fighting Joy or that's a lie actually the Gestapo picked her up during the border crossing
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in 1943. they left her in a meadow first she dug her own grave a single Bullet to the back of the skull
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last thought before that bullet was that she was four months pregnant and if we do not fight to create a future there will be no future for any of us
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there's an old woman in Miami who wakes confused from a dream of the wind blowing the wild flowers in a meadow your bones untouched beneath the warm
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French Earth which dream of a daughter's wedding good wine is drunk the only tears shed are happy ones 
real men
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some of the girls were boys The View changes from where you are standing words can wound and wounds can heal
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all of these things are true

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